To be or not to be

Today is good and it stinks all the same. I may be putting the cart before the horse, but I have a feeling that I’m not.

I HAD to see this movie today. I walked to the theater and arrived late…still wondering why the hell I had to see a love story when all I was trying to do was not think about “him.” It seemed ludicrous, but oh well…so I did. I bought the ticket, decided to have popcorn for lunch and sat down for a couple of hours.

So this love story…it wasn’t the love story part that spoke to me. It was the relationship between the two women. The older one treated the younger one like a daughter. She was loving and affectionate and gave her small touches and brushed her hair.

And that’s when it hit me, the kids thing is important. I do want to have one of my own, (at least one.) I want that bond, that connection….

On oneh hand, I’m getting myself all worked up over nothing. I still haven’t broached the idea (in the whole one day since I last wrote…lol.) I actually haven’t heard from him and I’m getting the sneaking suspicion that he needed to pull back just a bit, which is okay. I can be scary and a little intense with the whole heart on my sleeve thing. On the other hand, I am learning exactly how great of a catch I am….so if it doesn’t work out, there are others out there.